DAng its bee a lon time since I blooged

its been almost ONE year since I blogged, some much has happened this year, ive grown more, i even look diffrent I think, well yeah , Im still in school, working on homework still, annd finding stress relievers all the time so who knows, i thought I was gonna be richer this year, but money comes and goes, i have what i need, n i get to do what i want, so its good, the relationship wiht my mothers is like a roller coaster ride, we have our diffrences, n it seems like  were never going to agree on things, which im okay with, shes just in denial of things . oh well I have faith that things will get better,. Another thing that bothers me, is this girl in my history class, actually some girls, there like three witches, Whatever theyre not worth my time , hope nothing the best for them, cause if i dont KARma is a bitch. :D Imma Fake it till i pass that class, eneways, imma finish my diet coke n cheese cheetos, n study on my frkn mathematics test. <3

tell me more tell more ,like does he have a car

so tomorow on 2/14/2011 valentines day right, im driving on the freeway for the first time in my whole entire life. I wonder how that experience will be. i seriously hope i dont crash. i dont have a license just a permit. :/ but my moms friends is gonna teach me n help me out, hes a jerk though. and my new years resolution was to get my DL this year..fingerscrossed. <3 i have no idea where were going but i hope its not boring, im pretty sure ill be anxious tomorrow ...oh well im human right ;).. eneways yeah..oh and i dont have a valentines yet oh well :?

my idol..my inspiration..the one i could fee like ..the one i just cant see without the world

so uhm yeah..tell me

how you guys ever felt grossed out, like of yourself, cause I sure have, i feel gross, and disgusting at times. Of my body of course. i know im getting all my punctuation and grammar, but i don't think it matters, as long as you get my point. I wanna post some of my favorite pictures of Jeffree star, hes beautiful, and Im hideous and ugly i'll post some pictures of myself. and youll see the diffrence. i know jstar wears alot of make up but ive seen him without and hes just as perfect..mkkay. but yeah;...i need plastic surgery..soooooo freakn bad. and i have no money, well some but not enough, and i dont have a job, its hard in this freakn town, i hate it. but hey what can i do. But i do love myself, but i have my limits, i know when i need a little fixing. Like seriously i never had a  girlfriend or boyfriend none the less. I feel so lonely and stuff. Im just ouuta of it...really. I need to beautiful while im young. i hope i get an audience soon, so i could keep on writing and not get lazy. sometimes i give up hope, i have no one around me,.to say your beautiful and mean it. I know im beautiful on the inside, but both appearances matter to me, tell me what u feel about ur face, would get surgery, would u feel better, getting it. if u have gotten surgery and got breathtaking results how does it feel share it with us. :)