so uhm yeah..tell me

how you guys ever felt grossed out, like of yourself, cause I sure have, i feel gross, and disgusting at times. Of my body of course. i know im getting all my punctuation and grammar, but i don't think it matters, as long as you get my point. I wanna post some of my favorite pictures of Jeffree star, hes beautiful, and Im hideous and ugly i'll post some pictures of myself. and youll see the diffrence. i know jstar wears alot of make up but ive seen him without and hes just as perfect..mkkay. but yeah;...i need plastic surgery..soooooo freakn bad. and i have no money, well some but not enough, and i dont have a job, its hard in this freakn town, i hate it. but hey what can i do. But i do love myself, but i have my limits, i know when i need a little fixing. Like seriously i never had a  girlfriend or boyfriend none the less. I feel so lonely and stuff. Im just ouuta of it...really. I need to beautiful while im young. i hope i get an audience soon, so i could keep on writing and not get lazy. sometimes i give up hope, i have no one around me,.to say your beautiful and mean it. I know im beautiful on the inside, but both appearances matter to me, tell me what u feel about ur face, would get surgery, would u feel better, getting it. if u have gotten surgery and got breathtaking results how does it feel share it with us. :)